Memories of the 4th

One thing sticks in my head about a certain someone on the 4th of July. A blue eyed blond wearing a white sundress against fair skin, a smile that would make her eyes shine. We had known each other t_ Loretta:Why cant he be like I like u ur hot but all of the sudden he [...]
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Vanna:
Not only is it annoying, but it's also really painful to deal with.
(24 February 2017)

Vanna:
I want to end this once and for all.
(24 February 2017)

Vanna:
I just feel like he doesnt love me as much as he use to, becasue hes not really showing it as much.
(24 February 2017)

Vanna:
Usually with women, I don't even bother getting close, but if I happen to, I usually push them away by imagining that they are out to hurt me somehow, either by talking about me behind my back or stealing my husband.
(24 February 2017)

Vanna:
I should also mention that I do not trust women either, but that manifests itself differently.
(24 February 2017)

Vanna:
I am painfully aware of all the trauma I've inherited from my family, and I've been able to deal with all of it except this issue of trust.
(24 February 2017)

Vanna:
My family was filled with peole cheating on one another, and all of my friends have been cheated on too, so I guess I just found it hard to beieve that its possible to have someone that won't cheat on me.
(24 February 2017)

Vanna:
But the fear is so big and so irrational that I can't even get outside of myself to examine what it could be or where it could come from.
(24 February 2017)

Vanna:
I have tried to sit quietly with myself to figure out what this fear is and where it comes from.
(24 February 2017)

Vanna:
Yet, I am obsessed with the idea that he could be seeing someone else or making a fool of me behind my back.
(24 February 2017)