Swm, alternative lifestyle

I am a swm 35 looking for a woman. Race doesn’t matter, however i have never been with a black woman so i am curious. I am a little crazy or so i have been told, but not scary. Our limits are in our minds and i have few. i am self educated, not well [...]
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Katherin:
There are no cousins in our generation (my Dad has some that live far away). So please help, how can I be thankful despite this and I will be asking the same question come Christmas.
(15 November 2016)

Katherin:
My Dad's side of the family he is an only surviving child and his parents have died.
(15 November 2016)

Katherin:
The grandparents were close but they have died.
(15 November 2016)

Katherin:
How can I focus on the grandparents even though we have lost their family?
(15 November 2016)

Katherin:
So how can I be thankful at Thanksgiving for family despite this?
(15 November 2016)

Katherin:
My cousin got married this year (uncle's son) and only the two uncles and their kids were asked (not the two aunts or their kids). My Mom and her sister don't speak.
(15 November 2016)

Katherin:
My Mom, my Mom's two brothers, and my aunt (Mom's sister). So I miss my grandparents so much more because with their death everyone else left.
(15 November 2016)

Katherin:
My mother's siblings broke into three fractions.
(15 November 2016)

Katherin:
Thus, my cousins never see me other then via Facebook.
(15 November 2016)

Katherin:
My Mom's siblings make excuses when I try to visit.
(15 November 2016)